How You Know You Lost

This particular blog is just about holding on to your grudges. I use to be guilty of this over the years up until recently actually. Using that for motivation to do better in life just to rub it in whoever's face. For a lot of people the revenge is a recipe for happiness. Till you find that in fact its long term effects are more detrimental than the sweet. If you cant grasp your mind around that concept it will come to you in time. I know for some your about as deep as a bottle of rum left at an A.A. meeting."Not that im deep either" Try an dwell on it for a second though. Geez if I can do it you can.  Reasons being there are things you will hold onto that will stew inside until they effect other aspects of your views on things. Its probably unrealized at whatever state of unawareness your in. Like anything else things of repetition become to be second nature. You think your hurting the one that hurt you? Possibly, but not near as much as yourself. The one who has dealt out your demise more than likely has a short recollection of misfortunes that he/she has caused. Whether it be unintentional or not. You see revenge takes effort. The lack of memory from the perpetrator who is public enemy number one to you. Shows little effort for or concern for the situation at hand. Whatever that maybe. Which in itself means they win. Obviously if its not of importance to them what importance should it be to you? A practice of controlling our emotions is a hard thing to do. Especially for the blood line I was spawned from. But if I can learn to do it. Whether it be through transcendental meditation or goosfraba or prayer. It can be accomplished even for the most passionate of revenge seekers. I mean in divorce who is the one that is hurt the most? What hurts the most? The fact that you lost your heart or your possessions? Or the fact that you cant seem to find an ounce of regret in the X's face or actions? Or is it that he/she has moved on quite easily without you and that makes your skin crawl? Why does it make your skin crawl cause you don't have a way to even the score? No because while your chasing your thoughts and replaying the whole scenario in your head. They aren't!! Plain and simple. Maybe the better they do is just the icing on the cake but the whole idea of them not really showing remorse is more of a kill shot than anything. That's just an example. It doesn't have to be a relationship. There are a wide array of situations it could vary to. Ive started practicing more and more my own methods of self satisfaction exercises. "Ha ha..yeah I know that's wide open" Seriously though. Once it clicks and you get a bead on the actual idea you will find revenge in itself is watching ones plan it and try it. Cause the only one who can cause you pain is you. Yeah there is temporary circumstances that can occur. In the big picture though come on. Even in death there is hope if your heart is where it should be. Think outside the box instead of the immediate alternative to evil bliss. Its short lived and comes as a greater consequence to you than you realize. If achieved by someone of my stature its possible for anyone. It will get to be so that you care less and less and  almost in a way become sympathetic for your culprit..or culprits. Which in itself may become a challenge because their state of idiocracy is so broad that they believe the upper hand belongs to them. When your actually like...Oh were you still?...oh yeah. Your resuming your shallow dive into a pool of hopeless efforts to get back at me. Good luck with that. Ill be watching Sportscenter if you need me. Lol. So hopefully your starting to get the point. In due time it will consume them to the point of calamity. With devastating effects of self inflicted karma. More than likely anyway. Life is about adapting to the circumstances it gives you. Not always fair but its life. Much needed time alone has broadened my horizons on a lot of things. Changed my perception and for the better also. Where one door closes another opens is always the case. You just have to knock sometimes. Keep your mind open and awareness kept in check.

Did You Know

Jimi Hendrix the greatest guitarist and all around musician of all time in my opinion. Possibly second only to the Beatles only because they were first. Years ahead of his time pioneered things on the guitar that can never be recaptured. From his genius lyrics to style of playing etc. Well before I was born this man changed the music world forever. To this day still reaches people with his unique wisdom for embellishing feelings into music. A very hard thing to accomplish. Yet not that much different from me and you. Born without the extra luxuries in life battled his way with music to be the greatest music icon of all time. I read how his mother was an alcoholic and apparently showed little interest in him as a child. How from a very early age his yearning for guitar became almost unbearable. In watching footage of him its not to hard to realize from his demeanor that he was shy. At least in a one on one kind of serious topic kinda way. Which I think was why his music was so greatly expressed when he played. He was comfortable on stage or whenever he was playing music. Funny how many said he always seeked a sense of approval from society. How he would push the envelope in whatever the challenge might be." Example" If you thought 50 decimals was loud he would go 60. Get the point?  Never realizing he would ultimately set the standard for every wanna be guitarist in the world. Setting the bar so high in fact it will never again be reached. Maybe copied but never as unique. All to often there are comparisons to Stevie Ray Vaughan. I don't compare cause they are both truly great in their own way. Besides if you understand music and history at all. Then you would know that Jimi cant be outdone cause he did things first. That's nobodies fault or mean that anymore musicians cant be as good. Just an unbreakable record. Like Tony Dorsetts 99 yard run from scrimmage. Cant be broke because you cant go any farther from scrimmage and he did it first. Some maybe able to run that distance faster and look more flamboyant doing it. Still..you get the point I hope. Hendrix to me is just a very interesting character. If you know anything about music then you would agree. Sure there are downfalls to him cause like us he was very much human. His drunken woman abusing antics and run ins with the law don't take away from anything he did musically. Despite popular belief he wasn't even well liked or popular. Often shutout and ignored by society. Lucky for him being cool by worldly standards awards you no points in the area of talent. Which makes him as we like to say "Cool" The same could be said for Stevie Ray Vaughan if you know anything of his persona. Not exactly Mr.Suave. Like a Tom Brady or someone."Not taking anything away from Brady cause every guy would like to be him for a day". Just saying those aren't the characteristics that were a part of Stevie's and Jimi's mystique.Which added all the more influence behind their playing. Both great musicians. Both died early,alone,and before their time. Great art in music is not achieved through Hollywood persona's and easy lifestyles of living. If all you have ever known is the sweet than you could never relate to the sour. Acceptance and rebellion go hand in hand sometimes. For Jimi I think acceptance was achieved not only through musical talent, but through his rebellious behavior. Which in its own way makes me appreciate life on a whole different level. I just like to take the time to remember this legend. Even though I'm from a generation of music that's well..is something to be desired. Some good but eh. For the true musicians out there you get it I know. Music greats like Jimi keep us humble in our own little achievements in music. At the same time inspire the will to express through music what life didn't give us in social skills. Whether its in a lyric or bent guitar strings,piano,drum set,saxophone or whatever instrument or melody you prefer. Thanks to all the greats we were able to learn from!!